2011 was by far the most stressful year that I had with so many things changing, and even though nothing bad happened, the changes that took place tested my patience and self-concepts.
2011 for me was about feeling out of control and that whatever choices I made created even more lack of control. This was challenging for me because I typically feel a sense of control in my life, that things were going according to a set-out plan. That all changed in 2011. I broke a mold I had grown comfortable with by making choices and taking chances. The irony is even though nothing terrible happened I found myself resenting the choices because they came with experiencing a poignant lack of control. This was all on top of a very busy and stressful year at work. It has been a humbling year.
My posting on BilLOGs went down as I got enthralled with everything (There were 19 posts in 2011; 25 posts in 2010; 54 posts in 2009; 81 in 2008). I don’t think the frequency of blogging will change in 2012.
My company Promaginy expanded its income stream by intensely investing into online website properties. I will be posting in the future the methods I have found that makes money online but you can see some of my initial disappointing experiences in the Flippa marketplace.
By December 2011, it was apparent that partner Complex Games, had to shift its business focus that no longer aligned with my own and we have decided to go separate ways. They are immensely talented and always professional in their dealings with me and I wish them the best success in the future.
So what has 2011 taught me personally? That control is an illusion, and while we all crave to have a sense of meaning and control in our lives, it is something that will eventually be taken from us. The only thing we can control is our reaction to what is happening. There is a strange sense of liberation by giving up concepts of control.
So what will happen in 2012? If the mystics, New Age writers, and movie makers are correct we are supposed to see some pretty dramatic events happening. While I am skeptical by this talk of an end of the world, I do believe we are headed towards an economic catastrophe which has prompted me to minimize my stock exposure. The inability of government and citizens to control spending and take on too much debt has been haunting us for the past few years, but I think that this year we will see both Amercian and European governments come to a brick wall and cut back spending on an immense scale. This will stop the flow of money that has kept things going for the past few years and we will experience a severe recession. Times are going to get a whole lot tougher for most of us.
I wish you the best. CB